Reality check: I am severely unhappy.
I hate that we use social media to only show the best parts of our lives.
So here’s my little bit of truth; I am travelling the world and no longer enjoying it. Haven’t in weeks.
I have great days with amazing people and I cherish those moments but they’re nothing more than moments that just distract from the pain, cover it up briefly. Deep down I can feel desperation clawing at my heart which just wants to go home.
I want to go home. I would rather be at home. In Australia.
It’s likely I’ll leave again a month or so after I get home for another trip, but I need to go home to my family and friends.
I can’t do what I thought I could. Maybe through Asia I could have and maybe even in South America, but Europe sucks the life right out of you. Hence my misery.
I’m going to keep looking for a place that will serve as a resting place for a few weeks. I think this may be in Croatia? Sunshine, saltwater, good food, chilled atmosphere, lots of green, islands to hop around, waterfalls, cheap accommodation, quiet places to wait on the Lord and read His Word. Let’s see if that helps to fill the void.
Just thought I’d take the time to be honest about it. I may be smiling in the photos and yes they are all truly happy moments but it doesn’t take away the pain.
How do you pray the misery away? I lost all my joy and contentment the day I left Australia. WTH??!!
Soo yeah…those are my Lamentations.
Glory Wanderer 